Goodbye

Saying goodbye is a very difficult thing to do. Especially when the goodbye is ending a long term relationship between friends but sometimes saying goodbye, regardless of how difficult, is the best thing for a person. I have known for many years that I needed to end this relationship but regardless of how non-functioning and … Read more…

Finding Myself

Today at work, I was learning how to scan documents to my email on the scanner/copier machine at my office. The women who was teaching me how to do this said “After you press scan image then you find yourself.” Meaning that I find my email address on the machine to send the document to. … Read more…

Siblings are forever

I think it is the dream of most mother’s that their children become friends with each other and it’s hard to take when they don’t get along or seem to even like each other. I get envious when I hear that other children are close with their siblings, when my two youngest children seem to … Read more…

My darkest hours

I heard someone talking the other day about his darkest hour; referring of course to a time in his life when he felt extreme sadness and hopelessness and great tribulation. People who suffer from depression experience many dark hours in their lives.  A big percentage of those come without cause or warning for the individual. … Read more…

What Mental Illness feels like to me!

I have a mental illness.  However, doctors cannot agree on what mental illness I have.  Over the past 20 years I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia, Border line personality disorder, Bipolar and many other things.  My current Doctor doesn’t believe I have any of those and instead is treating me for major depressive disorder and generalized … Read more…

No Greater Joy

In 3  John 1:4 we read:  I have no greater joy than to hear that my children walk in truth.   I had an experience this week where this scripture really jumped out at me.  First, I’ll jump back 16 years.  I had a really good friend  who was in leadership in my ward and … Read more…

A constant state of Panic

I was recently asked how my Christmas was.  I have been pondering that at some length.  Christmas was stressful for me this year because unlike last year we really didn’t have the funds to get everything that the kids wanted/needed or that we desired to get for them.  As have been all the holidays this … Read more…

my new balancing act

  I have been in school for two weeks now and so far I am doing okay.  I worry about it getting harder and me getting to the point where I can’t pass the tests anymore.  I am especially worried about the math I’m going to have to take because I am pretty lousy at … Read more…

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