About six months ago, I started driving the van for work. At first it was hard, especially since I have no sense of direction whatsoever. After driving it everyday, I learned it well enough to not need my GPS but the other day I was asked to drive a new route. Instead of driving the South transport van I will now go North. I rode it with the girl who currently drives it so that she could train me and I came home so anxious and at the verge of tears that i am not sure this is going to be a good things for me.
The pros are that I pick up the van at the Orem office 5 minutes from my home so it will save gas and help motivate me to exercise ( I can walk or ride my bike)
I know I will eventually learn it but I am worried about how long that will take and in the meantime if I can get everyone picked up and dropped off at the times they need to be picked up and dropped off. I also worry because I don’t have a driving partner now. That is a double edge sword because she was annoying and drove me nuts but at the same time she helped me figure out where I was going and helped me do head checks and helped with safety issues.
The anxiety had been super bad today and even now that I am home I can’t calm myself down. I hope things will work out but I can’t stop worrying about it