In Deuteronomy 31:6, we read: Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the Lord thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.
It is 2:30 in the morning and I have been unable to sleep. there are some things on mind that have me worried and are keeping me up. I need to trust the God will not forsake me just like the scripture above says but the worries are so much that I am having a hard time with the trust part.
Here is what I am worried about:
My co- worker, T, says she is going to go to my boss’s supervisor and tell her that I am a cutter and that I have emotional problems and that I should not get the promotion I just got.
I lost the company credit card and while my boss says it’s not a big deal I am still worried that upper management will think it is and that I will get written up for it.
I have lost jobs because of my emotional issues before so this is a huge worry for me. I am going to spot on these worries:
How likely is it that any of these things will happen? Not very
If I do get demoted, fired or written up what’s the worst that will happen? I will have to swallow my pride, learn from my mistakes and possibly find a new job. I have been through it before and can go through it again.
Thoughts: Why is T trying so hard to sabotage my job and promotion? What did I do to her that makes her hate me so much? Am I really so unqualified for the promotion? Are my emotional problems really restricting my performance at work? I wish I could go back into the past and change some things but I can only go forward.
Impulses: look for another job, quit, tell T off. talk to my boss’s boss before T does, cry.
Feelings: fear, inadequacy, anger, anxiety
Sensations: insomnia. heart palpitations, urge to cry, changes in breathing, headache
Spots: I can resist impulses that are not good for my mental health.
We don’t fear situations but the symptoms they produce.
Calm begets calm, temper begets temper
perfection is a myth
feelings are not facts
I can stay in the here and now
comfort is a want not a need
I can remove the danger from the situation.
I can Focus on what I can do, do have and do like, not the opposite.
I will never lose the gains and progress I have made
I am strong and capable
I can get through anything
I can do hard things