Confessions of a Coward

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I have decided I am a coward. “What am I being a coward about?” you might ask Well I am afraid to tell certain people that I have dropped out of school. I don’t know if it’s because I am afraid of what they will say or think of me or if it’s just because I don’t want them to be disappointed in me.

One of the people I am afraid to tell is someone who helped me with my math and continues to bring dinner in for the kids and do whatever she can to help me succeed in school and the other one is someone from work who has expressed how proud she is of me that I am doing this and has told me more than once not to quit.

Today at work, I expressed how difficult the past couple of weeks have been and she said “I don’t know how you do this and school too”  All I said was “I don’t know how I do it either.” When I should have told her that I am not doing it.

So I don’t know what to do with newly  my discovered cowardice. They say admitting you need help is the first step so here I am on step one I am admitting I am a Coward what’s the next step?

2 thoughts on “Confessions of a Coward

  1. This probably wasn’t meant to be funny but the picture of the lion put together with the things you mentioned was hilarious! Don’t worry, we’ve all been cowards at some time. I still think you’re the best. Its not being a coward to take care of yourself. Taking care of yourself is sometimes the hardest thing to do. You can go to school again if you ever feel ready. 🙂

  2. I don’t think you are a coward. I understand completely why you don’t want to tell those people. I know you pondered and prayed and tho’t about this long and hard and hope you soon feel you did the right thing, if you don’t already. But by feeling that way, you are not able to feel the relief you should feel by lightening your load. I hope you soon do feel the relief. Love you.

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