I have decided I am a coward. “What am I being a coward about?” you might ask Well I am afraid to tell certain people that I have dropped out of school. I don’t know if it’s because I am afraid of what they will say or think of me or if it’s just because I don’t want them to be disappointed in me.
One of the people I am afraid to tell is someone who helped me with my math and continues to bring dinner in for the kids and do whatever she can to help me succeed in school and the other one is someone from work who has expressed how proud she is of me that I am doing this and has told me more than once not to quit.
Today at work, I expressed how difficult the past couple of weeks have been and she said “I don’t know how you do this and school too” All I said was “I don’t know how I do it either.” When I should have told her that I am not doing it.
So I don’t know what to do with newly my discovered cowardice. They say admitting you need help is the first step so here I am on step one I am admitting I am a Coward what’s the next step?